Mothers/Sisters/Friends

 I'm always reading...sometimes, four and five books at a time.  My favorite way to supplement this habit is at thrift stores and second hand book shops.  

Presently reading a book called:  Best Friends and it has shed a lot of light on something that is one of my areas that I would like to find peace with.  It describes in great detail what happens to a girl when she doesn't connect with her mother as an infant.  "From infancy, girls show marked awareness of human responses:  they scan facial expressions far more intently than male infants. As girls learn what it means to be a girl from their mothers, they retain their need to connect closely and intimately - again first with their mother. Girls carry forward this close bond and begin the long story of attachment to girls and women that will shape their identity and outlook on their lives - the feelings of wholeness, homecoming and delight as well as the pain and confusion."

Sorry mom...this connection did not happen for me and along with my 5 sisters, I would suggest they are at various stages of the same 'disconnect'.   Two have passed, but we all have struggled to find our way in life and for sure find our way in not just our relationships with each other, but with all females.  "If this attachment doesn't happen, it impacts how their identity is shaped and yes, even their outlook on life.  The dynamics of these first female connections shape the dynamics of all relationships."  

Always learning, and when I learn, I grow and change and yes, find peace.